listen to your heart.

so much has happened since my last post that it's hard to put into words. so much of it is still running through my mind, and through my heart, but it's all good. SO good, in fact, that i can hardly remember the last time i was this happy. or was i ever this happy?

but we are finally together. and i think that's all that matters. all the heartache, and the sleepless nights, and the tears, and the doubts - every second, every minute of all those horrible moments - it was all worth it. to finally BE with him, i'd do it all over again. i'd go through all of the pain. i'd sacrifice every good moment to relive the bad ones...

life is good. to say the very least.

a lot is on the horizon for this new year, and with him by my side, i think i can accomplish anything. right now i'm looking forward to plans (plans! who would have ever imagined i'd get excited about planning for things, be it bar nights, movie nights, running errands, everything is just so new/so great, it's unbelievable) that include vacations, a lot of social events and valentine's day (which he drunkenly brought up on saturday, i do wonder what we're going to do..). everything has happened so fast, i feel like i need to slow down, or get pinched and awoken from a dream... a dream that's so sweet, and too good and too real that it cant possibly BE real.

other than all of this sap, ive been focusing on my grad school application. going to hopefully send it off this week. and i've been working out. won't return to the gym until wednesday morning, but that's okay. as long as i go three days a week, and slowly work up to 4 or 5, i'm good.

well this day is over. the work part, anyway. now it's play time. *thought for another blog - reading past emails, remembering your past feelings and how you felt back then, so clear that you could practically re-live and re-experience everything - that's the power of words, the power of writing...the ability to re-craft real emotions and feelings...what other hobby/passion can do that?*